One Bright Pearl

It seems that the very attempt to integrate or understand my experience of Spaciousness is resistance to allowing the space to be.
Non-gaining can not accommodate integration.
Gain is loss. Loss is “Loss”. Loss is the Way.
I am Not.
Not. Not. Not.

Something is happening here. It feels as if a new opening is taking over my life. I cannot see the future and the past isn’t important. The process of moment to moment exploration of this life as it manifests as a singular field of action is creating some kind of change I cannot put into [...]

The only question that has ever mattered to me is - “Who am I?” This one question has always seemed to be the main knowledge, the ultimate knowledge, the one answer that resolves all other questions about meaning, purpose, relationship to myself and others.
So what have I discovered through this questioning? More than anything, I [...]

That is how I describe it today, the way I wanted, wished, and hoped I would be viewed by others, and by my self, eventually. I always wanted, strived really, to be this really sane, aware, and deeply realized guy who never hurt anybody, most especially, again, my self. The reality was I had this [...]

Living like this, homeless, is a gift to consciousness. At every turn I am thrown back on myself. There is no one to blame, and each and every single thought is clearly a product of my own mind, and has nothing to do with any other person. I alone am responsible.
I have practiced zazen for [...]

Truly there is one root to pivot from, here and now. It is not found in yesterday or tomorrow, it is never coming to be,  it is never leaving a trace behind; turn back and face yourself, immediately.
Thinking of the source, it is missed and yet it is the source itself, manifested momentarily. Sequentialality is [...]

While listening to Shohaku Okumura share his understanding of Bussho 1, he states:
“The power that creates our suffering or samsara, and the power that allows us to practice and create nirvana is the same power…”
It is all our responsibility.
This realization has become koan for me. It has put me on the spot. I can’t [...]

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