One Bright Pearl

There are times when I find that I am taken over by what Eckhart Tolle refers to as the ‘Pain Body’. It is during the onset, or attack, of deeply seated emotional pain that I am most vulnerable to slipping into unawareness. These memories, dormant energies trapped beneath my self concious, in the body proper, [...]

After years of practice something finally gave way. A shift occured that seemed impossible before, and in fact, extremely simple. It was as if a switch had been found, and yet had been there all along. Just waiting to be noticed by itself. Thinking dissolves instantly, and just this abides.
In the past couple of months [...]

Something is happening here. It feels as if a new opening is taking over my life. I cannot see the future and the past isn’t important. The process of moment to moment exploration of this life as it manifests as a singular field of action is creating some kind of change I cannot put into [...]

The only question that has ever mattered to me is - “Who am I?” This one question has always seemed to be the main knowledge, the ultimate knowledge, the one answer that resolves all other questions about meaning, purpose, relationship to myself and others.
So what have I discovered through this questioning? More than anything, I [...]

That is how I describe it today, the way I wanted, wished, and hoped I would be viewed by others, and by my self, eventually. I always wanted, strived really, to be this really sane, aware, and deeply realized guy who never hurt anybody, most especially, again, my self. The reality was I had this [...]

Living like this, homeless, is a gift to consciousness. At every turn I am thrown back on myself. There is no one to blame, and each and every single thought is clearly a product of my own mind, and has nothing to do with any other person. I alone am responsible.
I have practiced zazen for [...]

Truly there is one root to pivot from, here and now. It is not found in yesterday or tomorrow, it is never coming to be,  it is never leaving a trace behind; turn back and face yourself, immediately.
Thinking of the source, it is missed and yet it is the source itself, manifested momentarily. Sequentialality is [...]